When at university about 1970 I asked why conflict pervades our lives. After years I found the answer is simply the question of meaning I call "the last why" since it will never be answered. Still, we try and have tried to "fill the void" behind "Why am I?" in ways that conflict, since it was first asked by 'Eve'. Thus we've created our open-ended history of conflict we will soon close if we don't instead choose the "ideal reaction to the void".

In 2005 I decided to see if I was a fool for asking by seeking reaction to my analysis the only way an anonymous carpenter could, on this website. I first tried to attract visits with prose posts but changed to
poetry for reason in rhyme is memorable. I've had to advertise so I could be twice the fool but I remain undecided. Thanks for sharing. Doug.E.Barr  






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God's will is doctrine of the church
That harms God's credibility;
And gratefully absolves from us
All our responsibility.

Believing God decides who's rich
Then chooses those who beg for bread
Can only lead me to conclude
The church's God must be brain dead.

The view that God designed the rank
Of races that has whites on top
With darker shades then blacks below
Requires that all thinking stop.

For God to use disease to teach
Us lessons that we need to learn
Interprets life in such a way
That God, I only want to spurn.

God cannot "bless America"
Inferring God leaves out the rest
And not create in me the view
Believers failed their IQ test.

How can I possibly believe
When told that God is in control
Then see on every nightly news
More soldiers killed while on patrol.

To hear from fields of war and sport
"Almighty God was on my side"
While those opposed God helped defeat,
Is thinking my mind can't abide.

To thus believe I must suspend
The use of my intelligence.
To think we find the will of God
In things like this, does not make sense.

We're separated from what's real.
God's purpose no one understands.
We're looking up; we should look down.
The will of God is in our hands.

God; God's voice; God's message

Reader Comments (22)

we r living in the last days just like GOD said so. these things has to be fullfilled just as the BIBLE speaks so. don't look down that's not the home 4 u. keep looking up it won't always be like this. put GOD in your heart he will see you through the tough times this ain't nothing yet. the race is not given to the swift but the one that holds out until the end of the world.


If "we r living in the last days" it is only because we are not "swift" enough to realize hold outs with closed minds are leading us to "the end of the world." Not even God can save us from "true believer(s)." Doug.E.Barr

May 19, 2008 | Unregistered Commentera true believer

Your future is decided by who you have chosen to believe. The most credible person who ever lived is Jesus; the one who conquered death to the stunned amazement of hundreds. How stunned? Consider that even hough all abandoned Jesus at his death, at his resurrection, these same cowards flipped 180 degrees and boldly proclaimed what they had seen knowing it would lead to their deaths. Always remember, "Men will die for what they believe to be true even if it's false. But men do not ever die for what they know is a lie." Jesus' history was recorded by meticulous master historians, like the apostle Luke the physician, for example. All the historical and archeological evidence on the subject ever produced has overwhelmingly confirmed Luke's accuracy despite listing many dozens of names and places. According to the apostles, Jesus said,"I am the way the truth and the life. No man comes to the father but by me." and "... for I have not come to judge the world but to save it." Jesus said the kingdom of god is the solution to everything and that he is the only way through the "narrow gate." That means Jesus was either a mental case or he is god. As an aside, no one with any wisdom ever said god was in control. If god was in control, you could never sin. We could never convict a rapist. There would never be a reward for obedience. What would be the point of god making us? The bible uses the word "if" hundreds of times... "if you do what is right will you not be forgiven?" etc. Yes, it's the Lord's ultimate purpose that prevails but as god's spirit "lives in us and through us" sometimes we let him down. And sometimes god allows bad things to happen. Jesus made it clear that understanding god's mind is not an intellectual exercise that anyone can figure out. We are to "lean not to our own understanding." It's about opening spiritual eyes and submitting to our master... it's about wisdom and discernment. At the end of the day Jesus' teaching was about an eternal perspective and the kingdom of god as the solution to everthing. We are to join his kingdom and begin heaven on earth now and live it out through eternity. But we have to believe. We have to choose. We can believe in our broken nature, accept that as truth and be forever relegated to the trash-heap of the universe. Or we can accept we fall short and accept our savior. It all comes down to choices. To makes good choices requires spiritual discernment. Your future is decided by who you have chosen to believe. I hope you chose wisely because "Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore, get wisdom, and with all thy getting, get understanding." All the best, Steve


Had you quit writing after your first sentence your closing would have been appropriate. Sadly you filled the space between the beginning and the end with all the worst. Doug.E.Barr

May 19, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterSteve

Steve speaks truthfully. If you cannot see how God indeed is Our "Father" then you cannont possibly understand how he could 'let so many bad things happen.' Could a father kidnap his child and keep him from doing drugs, hurting others? Yes. Fathers usually don't. Choices. Would the child learn if prevented from experiencing the consequence of his poor choices? HE loves us enough to let go and learn that HE has our best interest at heart.

Sadly, I appears from many of your writings that you know just enough about the Bible to continue the confusion. You seem to wrestle with that within youself (which is expressed through your poetry) but have not choosen to seek the answers available to you in the Bible. You have been invited to Your Father's table - will you come?


Happily I "know just enough about the Bible to (recognize the source of) the confusion". The confusion ended when I realized we "let many bad things happen" believing falsely but thankfully they are God's will. Wrestling is good. Wrestling is questioning, wondering, "...reaching out...". When the wrestling stops we are at least brain dead. At "Your Father's table" you, Steve and countless others sit quietly, hold hands, bow your heads and say grace. Wrestling is not permitted. With a sense of freedom, wonder and no regrets I joyfully decline your invitation. Doug.E.Barr

June 14, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterChristine

I choose an easy way.



I am sad for you. In my view you have misinterpreted God's will or more likely it has been misinterpreted for you. If there is God's way it has to be the most difficult. It makes us responsible for what's happening. In abdicating our responsibility we relinquish life. "Reaching out..." into the unknown of our individual capacities is the challenge that makes life worth living. The "easy way" is the way of the brain-dead. Doug.E.Barr

June 19, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterRon

Do not feel sad for me. I walk with the Spirit of the Universe. Living in his will for me. Not using my will to control others. Not "man's" religion to control the masses who do not know The Spirit of the Universe and have to be preached to.
GOD Bless You.............


I think I may have misunderstood you. However, if I understand you now I still perceive your way to be the most difficult but at the same time the most rewarding. Thanks for clarifying. Doug.E.Barr

June 20, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterRon

I love god he is the only one i love dearly and every night i pray for all my good wishes to come true. I really loved this poem too.


Please pray for the "good wishes (of all humanity) to come true". Thanks Doug.E.Barr

September 11, 2008 | Unregistered Commenterdoug

ok honestly, people can be so stiff necked. God does not create evil (Genesis 1:31 and 1 Timothy 4:4). It clearly says in the bible.Condemning God for actions He doesnt do is not right at all. He is Creator and brings life into the world. Satan brings death aka sin leads to death. The soldiers die from evil people. God does not intend for them to die. We have free will. People are so eager to do things their own way but when a crisis happens, they blame God. God's will for us is "Our sanctification.." -1 Thessalonians 4:3. God wants us to love Him and abide in Him. To accept Jesus into our lives. For Jesus said " I am the way, the truth, and the light. No one comes to the Father except through Me."(John 14:6) Think about it next time you blame God for our sins. He offers forgiveness to anyone who asks, for you will receive.


If my writing helps diminish the number of stiff-brained people who quote creative fiction as if it is at least fact and worse as if it is the word of God, I will have done my part to prevent our collective self-destruction. Doug.E.Barr

July 21, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterChris Tapia

Sir, the question as I see it is not whether God is able to do WHATEVER, but whether YOU believe He can. The fact that He can do WHATEVER does not hinge on your or my belief. It hinges on Him and Who He is. You have a right to believe or not to do so. In fact, you would be miserable in Heaven, what with the disappointment you would bring with you there. While you have breath [ given you by this One you so bellittle] you can speak your opinion and belittle those who believe in their Creator, BUT at the end when you stand before YOUR Creator, I am afraid you will be mute. No argument then, because you will know the truth and how sad that will be for you. You might ask God for a demonstration of His power. If you truely wanted truth, I believe He would get it to you. Do you think you are brave enough to do that? I wonder. I hope sol


As proof of God's power I asked to be protected from mindless representatives. You have proven once again God is powerless. Doug.E.Barr

August 18, 2009 | Unregistered Commenterj. Blair

....Or so you thought you did Mr. Barr. If you don't believe in God, how do you go before him and ask for anything. Who or what did you put your request to? Was it man? Was it a chair? Perhaps you looked towards the heavens? Mr. Barr, if you do not believe in God, that is your perogative. In my humble oppinion (based solely on MY biblical beliefs), it is sad but your perogative none the less. Be happy! If you SINCERELYwish to find the God that I serve (creator of heaven and earth), you will but have to ask (SINCERELY) and you shall receive. Walk good! It was a good poem btw: raising some interesting points and leaving much to ponder, and actions to consider....thanks for sharing.


Your last sentence saved your comment from being dismissed as total nonsense and prevented me from considering you to be another completely mindless representative of God. Now I have to wonder about the possibility God may have some power. Doug.E.Barr

September 20, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterMeeka



This is one of 16 comments Crystal left. If you are interested in my general response to all of them you can read it here. Doug.E.Barr

October 25, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterCrystal F

the lord is with me; i will not be afraid. what can man do to? psalms 118:6


We can believe "the lord is with (us)", therefore "not be afraid" of self-destructing and as a consequence Man can self-destruct. Doug.E.Barr

November 21, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterGod Child

This poem left me pondering a lot. The wording is so strong. Right to the point. When I speak to people about God they ask questions upon question of why God was not in certain situations. I can not answer those questions. Sometimes, depending on what we believe, our faith can wane because this world seems bleak. I have had the good and bad happen and I believe it is all for a reason. I have faith in God and always will no matter what happens. God as seen me through a lot. I believe in spirituality not relijion. Yes, I do believe that the changes in this world is in everyone's hands it depends on what we decide to do with what has been put in those hands.
Lenny D.


I don't think you can say "…the good and bad happen…for a reason." and "believe that the changes in this world is in everyone's hands…" unless you think the good and bad things that happen are our responsibility. If that is what you think then the next time someone asks you "why God was not in certain situations" all you need to say is they were not God's situations. Doug.E.Barr

November 21, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterLenny D.

i am very dissapointed that you speak of god like that because i am a catholic


What did I "speak of god" and what difference does being a Catholic make? Doug.E.Barr

November 27, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterChristina

your awsome


so are you. Doug.E.Barr

February 26, 2010 | Unregistered Commentershel silversten

Doug, I feel very sorry for you. You stating what an intellect you are in your poem falls extremely short. I am one of the brain dead I guess, according to your difinition. Satan has you so blinded you cant see the forest through the trees. I will pray for you in your state of ignorance, that GOD will remove the blinders satan has put on you. Otherwise to the rest of you that keep trying to talk to Doug are just beating a dead horse in his current state of thinking. We (SAVED PEOPLE) are to shake people like DOUG as dust from our feet, not to wish them GODS speed, not to even open the door to them for they are DECIEVERS . It says in the LAST DAYS there will be a falling away from the church (REVELATION) I am sure due to peoples thinking the way DOUG does. GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON THAT WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHALL NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE. This is all for not because DOUG doesnt believe in the WORD OF GOD that it is INDEED , GODS words, not of man. The men writing the Bible were all spritually inspired by GOD and there for are GODS words not theirs. Thats why as another person so eloquently stated from the Bible, LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING. You know why DOUG??? Because he is GOD and you are a mere mortal. He knew when he wrote the BIBLE that we would not understand it all. Thats why I have what you call blind faith in my LORD and SAVIOUR because I wont ever understand it all until I go to heaven and recieve my incorruptaable body and soul. Its like a light bulb Doug. If someone doesnt understand how a light bulb gets turned on with a switch meaning how does the electricity get from the light to the switch up to the bulb, are going to just sit there in the DARK until you have figured it out??? Think about it!!!!

Oh Doug, Pray away no one is home for you on the other end. You have no faith or belief so why do you think he would waste his time on you and your rejecting words and thoughts??? GUESS WHAT HE ISNT BRAIN DEAD. :) He knows all about you already, but has given you free will on whether or not to except and believe in him. Dont wait to long to make up your mind because the worlds days are numbered and the end is very near.


Because you continued writing beyond the third sentence of your first comment you created a dilemma for me. Do I delete what you have written in my continuing effort to save our mental environment from polluted thoughts or do I leave your comments as glaring examples of the mental pollution that poisoned your mind and thus one brain cell of the human mind. I decided to leave your thoughts for now in the hope you might understand and do your part to help save humanity. Doug.E.Barr

I am looking to motivate my team i need a poem that remind them they are champions.


This poem will be perfect. Doug.E.Barr

August 9, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterNathaniel white

My name is Priscila. If you would not mind, would you please explain to me what this piece of writing means? I mean, would you clarify it for me?


Thanks for your interest. It doesn't need to be clarified. You just need to 'clean the window into your mind'. Read it again. You will get it. Doug.E.Barr

December 15, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterPriscila Orozco

gods will is also a song by martina mcbride....


I don't spend time listening to music. I had never heard of Martina Mcbride but I searched for her and listened to her song. She is a lovely woman with a beautiful voice. Her song about a small 'lessabled' boy named Will who apparently opened her eyes was touching. I can see why you probably enjoy listening to her sing. Thank you for taking the time to introduce her to me. Doug.E.Barr.

January 7, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterkelsey nehls

Your kidding right Doug. What version of the Bible have you been reading. The Idiots guide to misunderstanding every simple lesson told. This is obviously a survey so I won't spend time on explaining how I was silly enough to stumble onto your blurb and actually talked to. Good luck with your research.


I am deadly serious. You are wrong. I should not have to tell someone with even a basic level of understanding "this is obviously [not] a survey." I quit reading the Bible about 40 years ago. Since then I have been researching people including those who read the Bible then pretend to speak for God. That might explain why you concluded I have been reading "The idiots guide to misunderstanding". Thank you for your contribution. Doug.E.Barr

March 19, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterLianna

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