When at university about 1970 I asked why conflict pervades our lives. After years I found the answer is simply the question of meaning I call "the last why" since it will never be answered. Still, we try and have tried to "fill the void" behind "Why am I?" in ways that conflict, since it was first asked by 'Eve'. Thus we've created our open-ended history of conflict we will soon close if we don't instead choose the "ideal reaction to the void".

In 2005 I decided to see if I was a fool for asking by seeking reaction to my analysis the only way an anonymous carpenter could, on this website. I first tried to attract visits with prose posts but changed to
poetry for reason in rhyme is memorable. I've had to advertise so I could be twice the fool but I remain undecided. Thanks for sharing. Doug.E.Barr  






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"They" said I lost my life today.
That simply is a load of shit.
Let's tell the truth; collectively,
"They" justified the theft of it.

I died while doing what I loved.
How often I've heard that refrain.
No reason given can defend
A love that causes so much pain.

I could not love with guns in hand.
No camouflage can hide this fact
That killing is unnatural.
From life it only can subtract.

A thousand soldiers stand stock-still
As eight march with their now dead mate
To start my final journey home
Where loved ones in deep sorrow wait.

At home they say they're proud of me
Defending thus their way of life.
But no one says there'd be more pride
In living life without the strife.

The only voice of reason is
My own and I'd have surely said,
"If I could do it all again
I would not end up being dead".

I want to walk the earth again,
To hold my children, hug my wife.
I'd gladly trade those 'lofty' goals
My 'leaders' said were worth my life.

If you could see what I see now,
Your faces you'd all hide in shame.
My dying for your thoughtlessness
Was just not worth the passing fame.

God damn it! When will you wake up?
You're sleeping through your lives you see.
Until you change them I am left
In sorrow for eternity.


Reader Comments (8)

My heart just cries each time the news reports another of our young armed forces personnel has been killed. Each time there is another reported death, I hold my breath, as a young friend is over there right now. He will be there until next March.

How can they love a job that, if it doesn't kill them, kills some of their soul. They are never the same.


I hear you cousin. Doug.E.Barr

September 10, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterCarolyn Plitz

wow that realy touched my two older brothers have been overseas twice last year in east timor and Iraq and its sad and soo true that this war will not be over for a long time so more and more Australian blood will be shed and lost to this bullshit!


You touched me too Lauren. My 92 year old mother lives with me. She has very little short term memory. When she watches the news station that recycles news every 15 minutes, every 15 minutes she asks, "Why is there war?" I wish I could broadcast her voice to the rest of humanity. Perhaps we could become as wise. Doug.E.Barr

March 3, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterLauren

I just found your beautiful mind while surfing the net.Your poetry is astounding, especially this one. I know every time I see a fallen soldier's family saying how proud they are of him or her, I cringe inside. We are killing our children for no reason at all. I am proud of my son, he takes pride in his job, but he doesn't take pride in a senseless war.


Thank you for your kind words. Receiving support for my anti war poem from a "Mother of a soldier" offers hope. Perhaps we will live to see the time when all war is considered "senseless" and we train our children to live in peace we do not have to keep. Doug.E.Barr

April 15, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterMother of a soldier

war takes life,yes.i salute every soldier out there risking lives for the country.they make people proud they are fighting for the country and their people.but i would be more proud when i see that soldier come home to his family.kudos to those canadian forces out there.hope you will find peace at home.thanks for letting people knew soldiers laments to every life they lose, whether comrade or not.


The lament is that we divide ourselves and create theoretical unnatural lives we then feel compelled to waste our lives defending, rather than creating natural lives we can share. Doug.E.Barr

September 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commenterverna luz molina

Hey some of us like to go out and slay motherfuckers, we're called Marines. Don't feel too bad for us.


For you and your living buddies I feel sad you have to be Marines. It is for your dead buddies that I feel bad. Thanks for commenting and good luck to you! Doug.E.Barr

June 9, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterBobby

bless all who serve our country

May 22, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterlaura

I agree with "Bobby" the Marine. You should be thankful that there are men and women brave and selfless enough to give the highest price for YOUR freedom. Including freedom to write your bleeding heart liberal poetry. Have you ever served this country? I have! I thank each military member, and family members of those fallen. The members of our armed forces did not "choose" this war, but they were quick to defend it when the Taliban murdered countless innocent Americans.

October 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterRigger

We Serve ,We Fight and We Die. Forever we are Soldiers, our brothers lie on countless battlefields lives stilled by violent acts.But do not pity us instead repay our loss by caring for all those who mourn us


You serve, you fight and you die because of the way we all choose to live. We can choose to live and serve in peace. I do pity the few who are sacrificed so the many can continue to live unwisely. Perhaps before it is too late, soldiers having seen the consequences first hand will refuse to defend our collective stupidity. Doug.E.Barr.

April 24, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterA Soldier

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